Tomorrow is the big day!!!

Tomorrow is the big day! Sunday I walked through my last metal detector! Yep bright and early Tuesday morning we go in and I am getting a pacemaker! Joe and I are hoping and praying that this will be the answer and that I will wake up with a heart that beats to the same rhythm as everyone else.

Please keep us in your prayers. Not only my heart but Joe seems to have picked up the flu and is pretty miserable. I am hoping that he will be well enough to be by my side tomorrow.

Goodbye old friend

Saturday was possibly the saddest day of my life and I am not exaggerating. I know 2 of my friends who had the same car and loved it, so I know I'm not crazy for being too attached. I sold my Audi and bought a new to me car.We found the car we wanted to buy and when it came to talking trade in value and everything for the Audi I completely lost control of my emotions and started bawling uncontrollably at the dealership. The dealer even suggested to us to take the new car for the night and come back in the morning. I told him I didn't want to drive that car and that I wanted to drive the Audi. We backed out of the deal because I was not ready to say goodbye to my car even though I could tell it was dying a fast death. A week later we came back to the same dealership and I felt more ready, until again it came to saying goodbye. The tears started pouring out and I could not be stopped. I honestly have never cried so hard in my life. Is it really possible to get attached to a piece of metal? Yes

It was in this car were I was able to bond with my Dad as he drove me to my friends places when I was young.

This Audi was my first big purchase ever.

Good memories galore here in the Audi.

And perhaps my favorite memory of all is the thoughtful first Christmas gift from Joe. At the time the Audi had only a tape player and Joe thought it was ridiculous. So for our first Christmas dating he got an awesome CD player installed. It even had a connection to be able to use my I-pod.

Joe did promise me that someday he would buy me a new Audi to make more memories in.

Just writing this post about my Audi is making me cry. I hope I made the right decision to sell.

RIP Audi A4, you will be missed.

His new t-shift

I love Joe. He is so competitive and athletic. He has had many goals at BYU. The greatest goal was achieved when he got married to me. The second thing on his list was to win an intramural championship. He has been close so many times. When he was recently returned from his mission, he was on an intramural Flag Football team with Jason Deelstra, Tyler Unsicker, Dave Kimball, John Gochnour, his brother Tom, and some others. They played in the highest division and did very well. This was back in the day when the Daily Universe ranked the top intramural teams in the Daily Universe every Wednesday. Joe and his buddies would hang out in the Wilk and talk with people and tell them that they played on an intramural flag football team, that they were in the highest division, and were undefeated. They would then invite these people to come watch them play. The team played very well but lost in the semi-final game of the tournament. He made it to the semi-final game 3 other times but never won it all. This year he signed up a team for co-ed basketball. Their team name was Brothers and Sisters because a lot of the members of the team were related to each other. There was Joe, his brothers John, Tom, and sister Cheri. Mike and Teresa Wayment, Casey and Savannah Wassom, Tara Amos, and Hanna Picard. They played well all season and tonight they became intramural champions. Part of winning the tournament is receiving the coveted Intramural Championship T-shirt, which Joe proudly now has. I'm sure he won't ever take it off and I might have to cut it off in his sleep at some point. Here are the Preston Brothers and Sister.
Here is the Team in their matching Championship T-shirts.
Way to go you guys!!!

40 Years!

Happy 40th wedding anniversary to my Mom and Dad! I love you two!!!

(remember how much fun I was to be with on this trip to Italy! Imagine how much fun you would have reliving it with me and Joe! We are free anytime!!)




40 years is a huge milestone! I look up to you both in so many ways!

If it looks like they are wearing the same thing in every picture it is because they are. My Dad's suitcase got stuck in London for basically the whole trip, my Mom has no excuse. Thanks for putting up with me!

Date is set

Yesterday we met again with my doctor to discuss questions that I have about getting a pacemaker.

Here are some of the questions that kept me up at night

Can I sleep on my stomach with a pacemaker?

Yes

Will I be able to breastfeed when we one day get to be parents?

Yes

What type of a pacemaker will it be?

A pediatric pacemaker, he said the leads will last longer, and that I probably won't have to get new leads until I am 50ish. But I will still need to get my battery changed every 10-15 years.

How long will I be on medication?

Most likely my whole life.

and the most important question...

Will I be able to possibly someday try to have a baby?

Yes, maybe in time, but I will have more frequent checks with my heart doctor and a high risk OB, and a neonatologist if I do become pregnant in the future.

So it looks like my pacemaker will be coming right before Christmas!! December 20th! I am really hoping for a miracle for Christmas

Lavell Edward Stadium

A few weeks ago Joe and I got to cross something off our bucket list. One of Joe's friends won tickets to the coaches show by KSL's Greg Wrubell and invited us to come along. With this we were able to go on a tour of the west side of the stadium. Someday we hope to have season tickets on this side of the stadium. I am happy that I once was a Cougar!

Updates updates

Yesterday I had an appointment with one of my heart doctors and even though it was Halloween it was no treat. Joe and I were expecting that we would talk with our doctor about what was going to be different with my upcoming heart procedure, we had heard 3 weeks ago the plan was to do another ablation. I was completely caught off guard when the doctor said that I would be getting a pacemaker.

He explained that the reason I suddenly needed a pacemaker was because my lazy SA node is not showing any signs that it is going to start working. I wore a monitor for 24 hours and during that time my SA node didn't work at all. My heart also stopped for 10.5 seconds (thank goodness it started working again!) We had known that my heart was still stopping every now and then, but it has not been recorded for as long as 10.5 seconds yet. It scares me because when it stopped for 10.5 seconds I was conscious, and now I wonder how long my heart has stopped when I have passed out in the past.

The doctors said that it is possible that it could also fix my heart because they think in a way my heart is trying to overcompensate once my heart rate gets so low in the 30's-50's that it starts to race. I don't really understand it even though I am a nurse.

I have a really good friend also named Sarah, who got a pacemaker when she was 14 years old. I have known her since we were both 12. She has been so great to answer my questions. She has really helped me to know that this is not the end of the world and that it is okay to live with a pacemaker.

I am waiting to hear back from the doctors on when this will all go down. Maybe they will change their minds again and want to try an ablation again. I will keep you updated.