What should I do?

Today I drove my car for the first time in 2 weeks, and it did not go well. Let me first tell you how much I love my car...

I always loved my Dad's 1998 Audi A4. When I was in Jr High he would bribe me by saying that if I washed his car he would drive me and pick me up during the weekends. I loved this idea and I washed that car by hand weekly until I could drive myself.

This was one of the smartest things I could have done, because I eventually bought this car from my Dad and because I had taken such great care of it when I was a teen I was getting a beauty of a car.

The day I bought my car from my Dad he had it fully detailed for me!
This picture is when he handed over the keys to me maybe about 5 years ago.

Today started out with me trying to start my car and it not starting. Dead battery. I got it replaced and drove on, but the car was switching gears like I was driving a stick for the first time (it is an automatic, so I knew something was wrong). I drove it to the Audi dealership to get it looked at. Hours later the Audi grim reaper called me with the worst news I have heard, he told me my transmission was bad and that it would cost $6000 for a new transmission. After more research and calling around I have more options.

1. New transmission-this will never happen, We are broke.

2. Sell it for parts- I can't believe he even suggested this option to me

3. Used transmission- ($2800, 6 month parts and labor guarantee)

4. Trade it in (we are broke)

5. Drive it until it gives up the ghost

6. Become a one car family, or let Joe buy that motorcycle he always talks about (this will never happen, as a nurse I call them "donorcycles")

Did I mention my car has 171,000 miles on it and normally every time I take it in for a check up the mechanic is always shocked by how awesome my car is. And my car has heated seats, tinted windows and all wheel drive. I seriously love this car.

Football

So the wife of the year award came out and I won!!! Yep, what sealed the deal is when I let Joe go away last month for the BYU vs Texas game for the weekend, and then I blogged about it. I really wish I could have been at the game even though BYU ended up losing. Joe was able to go and spend time with his close "Burley friends" as I call them, aka John and Elliot.

Stumbling block

I have to say that the first week following my surgery was great. I had more energy than I ever had following any other procedure. I felt good enough to go to the football game (I'm grateful I have a temporary handicap pass, and BYU traded our seats so I could sit the whole game!)

But early this morning I woke up to my heart racing. At some point in the night my heart decided it would misbehave. Before bed time I felt great! I had a heart rate of 55. I even told Joe that before when I had a freaky fast and irregular heart rate it would keep me awake, but now my perfect sounding heart kept me awake because I loved listening to it and feeling it.

I am a member of The Church of Jesus Christ of Latter Day Saints and it is our conference weekend where for 2 days we get to hear from the leaders of our church. In the early morning hours I was reminded of an old talk from 2004 entitled "But If Not" from 2004 that really touched my life at the time. I'm sure I was facing a difficult challenge (what person on this earth isn't) and this message stuck with me. I searched for the talk and found it and it brought comfort to be again 7 years later.

Hours passed and my heart was still racing. I called my doctor and told him what was up. He put me back on heart medication for the time being and I will go to the office tomorrow for an EKG. My heart is still racing.

I know I ask you all the time to pray for my heart, but will you all please continue to pray. I am very touched that I have people who read my blog and care about me and Joe.

I'm hoping that this increased heart rate is just a fluke and is from the irritation from what they did to it, and that it will calm down... but if not I will be strong and I will get through this.